Here comes another one

Time flies! I'm married, soon to be a father and it's all good.

Do I want to be a rich analyst or market maven?

wow

playing poker, not smoking. love my friends. Andrea lost her shit, her dad and me.

I miss love. When will it find me.

arrrgh

I love her. is she the one? is she interesting enough? am I a narcissist?
I'm tired and mildly self-destructive.

relax, dave relax.

It's a new year

and I've been awash in emotions since Thanksgiving. Bronx State brutalized me, drained me, demanded of me and at the end let me go. I bought two new fish- Bronx and State- and with no top State jumped to his death. Now I've a top and light on the tank and a new State.

Termination, what a word. Powerful, final, true. But in life- it's importance? To a woman with an 80 year-old father? Death.

I think I love Andrea. Haven't said it yet. Could've, but she got drunk and jealous.

Now, that's real. We're real. My feelings are real.

Striving for excellence we will achieve.

Friday night lights

up my life with Andrea.

It is amazing this relationship. There is no doubt I like to see her and want her in my life.

longterm the intelligence thing is there but is a metaphor for commitment.

I am figuring things out- there will always be surprises- but the anxiety is lifting.

affect change and go bucks!

I may have found a woman who loves me...

Now do I love her? It's only been a month but things are going really well.
I of course have issues about intelligence but maybe it's not that but that I don't know her well yet?

Either way am not feeling depressed.

I quit smoking again.

I started internet poker again.

word.

Still crazy after all these years

I'm feeling better- you know. There is a screw in the computer keyboard and the apartment is clean and there is a ferndaddy sitting next to me. Therapy roolz and I met a girl I liked (she didn't like me) but that's ok because I'm not gay. Trying to find a place is a pain in the ass also.
Who knows but Bronx State is good at least.