It's a new year

and I've been awash in emotions since Thanksgiving. Bronx State brutalized me, drained me, demanded of me and at the end let me go. I bought two new fish- Bronx and State- and with no top State jumped to his death. Now I've a top and light on the tank and a new State.

Termination, what a word. Powerful, final, true. But in life- it's importance? To a woman with an 80 year-old father? Death.

I think I love Andrea. Haven't said it yet. Could've, but she got drunk and jealous.

Now, that's real. We're real. My feelings are real.

Striving for excellence we will achieve.